Tuesday, August 16, 2016

just not me, yet.....

    
   The best laid plans are still just that. Plans. I am drawing, creating and producing lots of pieces for my upcoming craft shows.... but i still don't feel like myself yet. All i really want to do is sit, watch the Olympics and draw - alone. That's totally not like me. I am not a loner, I am a people person. Ask my husband and my friends... the "B" word comes to mind when they speak of me lately.... I don't like that at all, but I also have no idea how to change it. 


 I have been working on alot of quotes lately that just seem to fit. I am really enjoying putting them onto signs and doing a little lettering practice just in black ink on white paper. This Positive Pants one is totally me right now. I am such a negative Nancy... that's part of my problem. How to get past it? Not sure. I keep thinking it's just time that might pass and I will be back. In the mean time... no one wants to be around and I can't say as I blame them. I don't even want to be around me... but that's hard to do...hahaha.

  
 So i thought i would put some goals for the rest of the year here in front of everyone, so that I hold myself to them. I really want my Friday's back so that  I can get my lettering class finished. I know alot of you are waiting for that and I am too. Fridays used to be my video taping day and now I need those and my weekends to help my folks. It's a harsh reality... but it just may not happen this year. Not sure. Other goals for the rest of 2016....

1. Finish my online lettering class and get it out there to you all.
2. Finish writing my lettering book
3. Get my etsy site back in shape
4. Figure out how to be kind and happy again
5. Dress for Success... i started this today. Dressing for success and maybe it might just find me. hahaha
 that's about it for now.... So, in the mean time, I am going to keep drawing stamps, art play paintables and my signs and quotes.... follow me on instagram ( i'm all about the art there and way less philisophical - haha.

6 comments:

LChippy76 said...
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LChippy76 said...

Lindsay,
I seem to be in a similar situation myself. I'm helping family members too, and glad to be able to. But I'm not my normal self, due to being overwhelmed at times. Not getting my "ME" time to help become normal again. Trying to take it one day at a time!!

I'm looking forward to your Lettering Class and your New Book too. But GOOD things come to those that wait. So I will be here patiently waiting. It will HAPPEN!!! <3

Hang in there....you are an AMAZING Lady!!! LOVE all YOU do!!! :) ((( HUGS ))) <3

Linda Lechnir Chidster

Jill Norwood said...

Lindsay...I know we do not know each other but my heart goes out to you as I have been where you are. I helped my husband through a long difficult brain cancer illness and It has now been 4+ years since my son and I lost him. Care taking takes so much out of our spirits not to mention it is exhausting to the body and soul. You have been through a big trauma with your Mother's illness and moving them to assisted living and it just takes time for our weary souls and spirits to find inner peace again. I think journaling and letting everything you went through out can help too. I wish you all the best and send hugs! Take good care! :) Jill

Heather Bradford said...

It really helps to know you are not alone in your journey. Everyone gets a turn I suppose. I thought that would make a nice stamp for you... Sometimes it's just your turn... It is my turn on the grief rollercoaster. You never know when the wave will hit. Sometimes at the most inopportune moments. My counselor has informed me I won't know when the pain will lessen. My creativity has taken a hit too. Being alone is my fear and my reality. Thanks for sharing your moments and your inspiration with us... Prayers are with you all!

K Andrews said...

Lindsay, you've been through a lot lately and for a while… give yourself a break. Sometimes it just feels like the world is against you and its hard to get out of the rut. I can only tell you what has helped me ( I went through a really rough 13-15 years… won't get into that with you).

First a foremost, have Faith and ask the Good Lord to help you. Be thankful to Him, even during this roughness… He will hold onto your right hand and get you through these hard times.

Second, JoAnn from Fixer Upper (a television program) made a sign for one of their clients that had gone through some hard times and was creating a new beginning… the sign read "TODAY IS A GOOD DAY FOR A GOOD DAY." Just keep repeating that to yourself and I think, in time, you'll begin to feel it.

I heard somebody say one… "You done the best you could at the time you done it." I believe that's true many times in our lives.

LIke I said at the beginning… give yourself a break. The harder you are on yourself and the more you punish yourself, the deeper the hole gets. Keep saying "today is going to be a good day… Thank you Lord Jesus for Your Blessing and for walking with me today."

My best wishes to you,

Kathy

Candy said...

I just read this and of course I now feel like shit for being overly anxious about your lettering class. At the end of the day you have to take care of you and yours. Everyone really has gone through trials and rough spots, we just seem to forget them as we move on. I guess that's the beauty of time, it's truly a healer. Take care and just show yourself the same kindness you extend to others.